Moving and No Home

Right...so just to let everyone know what's going on in my life. Well....

First thing is first....I haven't had a proper home to live in for over a year. I have had to sleep on the sofa and floor of a work colleague of mine. Now this is due to me starting Uni last September and me failing to find somewhere for me to live during the term (that and focusing more on not keeping money to find a place but using it for uni materials and paying them money for food and bills). Well since April me and a classmate of mine have been looking for somewhere to live for September. Now I must just have really bad luck when it comes to houses. In June we found this amazing house and the landlady said we could move in with a friend of ours who works. The only thing we had to do was wait until July 18th for it to come off the market to be sold. Now a month came and went and guess what? It didn't get sold. Things were a definite go at that point and I had the deposit money all ready just had to go get myself some references and see if the Uni would be my guarantor as my parents no longer want anything to do with me, and won't help me out at all. Emailed the landlady and the evening she said yes, she then emailed me back saying the current tenants who were living there had decided they may want to stay afterall... Now this got me a little annoyed and the landlady said to give her until Tuesday night to find out what they were doing. Now me and my friend Becy went to a house viewing, saw the house. It was amazing. Even told the people living there it was amazing and that we were definitely going to tell the landlady we would take it....Two days went by and I got an email to say that they were definitely going to stay another year... This was on Wednesday afternoon... Now this extremely upset me and pissed me off. Not only did we end up waiting a month for this house, the current tenants then decided they were going to stay afterall. It's now Friday at 1:45am while I write this in July. I have had to email lots of people about houses, and I am pretty worried because I'm sure all the places that are avaliable have most likely been taken by now. Not only would I be homeless if we don't find a house, but my classmate and my other friend who is moving in with us are now going to have no permanent residence to live in. I am having to go to Uni and talk to them, see what they can suggest and also talk to the citizens advice if the University can't help to see if they can.

I can't live on a mattress on the floor any more, and I can't feel like I have to be careful about what I say or do around people as I don't want to be kicked out and put on the streets if me and the people living here end up falling out. My work colleague who lived here has gone off travelling, so I am here with two of his friend's and a new house mate...PLUS another house mate who thankfully happens to be another work colleague of mine and is meant to be moving in with me into our new house.

Next thing that has happened to me... well like I said before, I don't have any contact with my parents exactly. Today I spent the whole day moving out my things from my mum's house. Now it took us two trips to move it all out (not including a car full that was taken to my friend's mum's house to be put in her loft). My mum didn't say a word to me, and she supervised everything I took...almost like she thought I was going to steal something from the house. I managed to get my birth certificate from her also, which means I can sort out things for myself like passports etc. Which is a good thing. Now I can't get into the room where my mattress is on the floor as it is now taken up of boxes from the house. This makes things a little worse because now I have things I can't even unpack and make as my own home because it isn't my home to live in. Even though I have been living here for almost a year now. I'm kind of glad I now have everything that was left there... It means that I don't have to worry about what she could do to my things if I ever gave her a hint of dislike. I have had enough of that whole part of my life. I never felt like part of the family, and all I was to them was a way to have money and get them games whenever they wanted them. When I moved to my mum's after living with my dad a few years she shoved me under the cupboard and made me move in there. She complained whenever I was at home, because even though I was working and not at Uni at the time, I was only working part time (because I couldn't get more hours due to how many people were working there). So she got annoyed because she felt I wasn't doing anything with my life while I was waiting to get back into Uni after taking a year out. Then she bitched about how my dad never did anything for my birthdays, and then this year for my 21st she just sent me a card.... and a parcel with bank letters in. While for her birthday and Christmas I spent over £150 getting her DVDs that she enjoyed watching so she could catch up on them. And I spent money on the rest of the family. I don't think she realised just how hurtful it was to know that my own mother didn't really care that I was turning 21, and that I was alone with no family or proper friends....

Anyway that is all over now and I now have to focus on getting somewhere to live and sort out my finance for University so I can afford to go to both Uni and live somewhere, and afford my materials. (Sometimes I wonder if Student Finance even think about how much it costs for rent and then to pay for materials and equipment).

Well that's my little ranty thing over....Goodnight everyone.

Jade